Dear Cabbit...looking away for a season..

It's interesting to be in this time and space.

Where I can feel us near our farthest apart moments that we've ever had since the first apartment.

Long way to go from never more then one night, then never more then one week; to having gone all this time so physically and emotionally far from each other.

And to also feel and know in every part of my being, that we are closer then ever and coming into harmony very quickly.

Which is something profound to see, feel, and know.

It's also something not many can truly appreciate and understand.

Which in some ways is sad, cuz there's not anyone I want to share the exp with.

So these are the moments when I not only date myself, I am also my own best friend.

My own cheerleader.

My own counselor.

My own judge.

Allthethings.

Cuz some things are too special to share..

Including some gnowings.

Plus, sometimes, even when you want to share and you have someone who has seen the same data and seen all the magick, they still don't really believe; mostly cuz of their own shadows, though either way, wanting to share with those who can't believe you yet, just isn't worth it in comparison to actually manifesting the exps you want.

I know this is something you'll understand at some point soon.

You've actually always been the one person to believe me far more often and far more completely then anyone else.

I realized that, after facing many fears about ppl not believing me.

Now I'm in a place where I'm comfortable with ppl believing me or not, thinking I'm weird or crazy or whatnot, and just letting them think that.

Both cuz I can believe myself now, and not require anyone else to tell me they see what I see or agree with my intuition or assessments, and cuz I know who will always believe me.

You.

Which made me laugh when I realized the truth in that, and how it answers so many questions about why you've been behaving as you have, and confirms everything I already predicted; with and without updates to said predictions.

Which hasn't been needed very often, cuz for me, you're very predictable, lol

That was something that surprised GoldenRod. 

That I predicted your behavior from the moment you left, and have been accurate.

Tho that's what makes me giggle about him and others.

They all tell me all the time, how accurate I am at reading ppl, intuiting the future, and lining things up with astrological energy.

And they've all seen me help myself, and help them, and help ppl they know.

Tho none of them believe when it comes to what I tell them about themselves, or about you.

Ironically, it's hardly about "us" stuff most of the time.

It's about all the rest of you.

Tho I realized the other day, that no one will ever know you as deeply as I do, cuz know one else has ever shown you that they wanted to and you've never wanted to be that open with anyone before or after.

And most ppl are bitter about relationships they've had, where they gave up too soon and regretted it, or gave up because they believe in "broken ppl".

So they can't appreciate you as a whole human being, cuz they'll never really know you.

And they couldn't appreciate the reality of data, even if they did know you that deeply, cuz they're too bitter about old wounds of theirs.

You know what's funny tho?

I don't get triggered by that anymore.

There's nothing to "prove".

Which is an interesting energy to sit in these days.

Absence of desperation.

Absence of need for approval.

Absence for any rush away from any situations or into any.

I'm comfortable with where things are right now.

You're right on schedule for where would be right for you; not anyone else,

Learning in just the ways you are.

Coming in and out of your shell as your ready to.

Doing your thang.

Lol

When Goldenrod said something the other day about his feeling that you'd stay stuck in the same cycles you have been, likely with different partners cuz of the nature of the toxicity in relationship approach; I wanted to look at him and be like "You have no faith, and you haven't been paying attention. Everything is just how it should be. Perfectly imperfect."

Tho as you and I both agreed a long time ago; there's clearly a certain kind of exp lacking there, that makes it near impossible to understand.

Which is funny, cuz again, I know you'll understand what I mean; at whatever point you get to reading this silly blog, lol

I know you understand the magick.

I know you understand the emotions.

I know you understand the karma (mostly).

And I know you have a much greater understanding of cycles, ppl, and realities of the world, in very similar ways to how I do.

And more.

Ironically, it's knowing that you actually do understand; that you were already enlightened when we moved into the apartment, and that that sort of understanding never goes away.

It stays.

Even when we go through hellish dark knights of the soul.

It stays.

That knowing.

That's what tells me to just trust.

More in Spirits plan and Divine Timing then anything else.

Though also in myself

And in you.

I know you're up to something..

And I know that even if I'm wrong about that, you've manifested all of the perfect ingredients in your life, to cause you to completely turn over the tables in your life, and stand in the energy of freedom very very soon.

Anyways.

I pray you're driving safely out on those roads.

And listening to your Intuition every mile.

Love you...always..

LadyBunny

Dear Cabbit....tears that sting..

Today I'm thinking of many things..

One of them..

Was a beautiful vision..

Of you coming to me..

Tearfully asking if you can take me on a Real date...and saying you're sorry you took all the opps to do so before, for granted..

And when we get to wherever you choose..

There's a juke box..

And you put on EC's "You look wonderful tonight"..

And you ask me to dance..

And as we dance..

You sing the song...

For me..

It feels like one of those dreams..

Where everything felt so real..

That when you wake up..

You don't want to leave it..

You want to go back to it..

Cuz it's so perfect..

😔

Dear Cabbit...karaoke with boys..

I find myself in an interesting moment.

Me and our boys are out for KO at the bar you found for us before you left..

One of my brothers showed up, as did some guys who've been flirting with me when I come here on my own.

And they are all having a GREAT time with the boys.

They all have kids of their own

Who don't get to come out with them.

Same reason you can't come out..

"Drama" n such..

It's strange to be seeing our boys have so much fun with other men..

To be getting the attention and appreciate they really want from you..

Will always want from you..

Tho what do they do..

What do I do...for them..

When you aren't here?

When you haven't been here..

When you let drama be your priority..

And pridefulness by your guide..

I'm praying for you now..

As I navigate new waters..

Having faith you're doing the same..

Cuz I know the tasks set before you..

Are not ones you've chosen before..

Dear Cabbit... you've become a pirate...

I keep hearing that line from Hook..

Where granny Wendy looks at grown up Peter after his son describes his adult life..

And she looks at him with genuine shock..

And said, "Peter... You've become a pirate.."

And then the music from when tink gets him to Neverland, and drops him off with the pirates to try to rescue his kids..

That almost tribal music, that tells you to watch where you go and what you say..

Cuz ancient magicks are afoot..

As are ruthless pirates..

Then there's the scene where the mom, before the kids were taken, throws Peters cell phone out the window and tells him "you're missing it", and describes how he's missing his kids lives..

And he STILL takes her and them for granted..

Until Hook nabs his kids..

And challenges him to the greatest challenge ever;

Which wasn't actually rescuing his kids.

It was Finding Himself.

Reconnecting with his inner child.

Looking at and finally releasing his childhood wounds.

Facing his childhood fears and his adult fears.

And being willing to do anything to save his kids; including trusting a crazy fairy and a bunch of kids, lol

There's so much about this journey

When we have to do that.

Take leaps of faith without having all the data or knowing how long it'll take or what ppl will think;

And just trust that when we take actions that align with our hearts, that we know will make us feel good about who we are inside, and what we feel we stand for.

I know that's much of what your guides are teaching you now.

I can tell by how the "you've become a pirate" line keeps coming up, though with your name in there, instead of Pan's.

I feel the energy of "miraculous change".

Increasingly over the past few days.

And can hear the "got to learn how to fight, remember how to fly, and crow."

Feels like the energy of you learning to find happy grateful thots that help you stand up for yourself and get you free.

And learn to fly.

Without alcohol or anything else.

Feels like you might be getting back into your music again too..

Picking up your guitars..

And reconnecting with yourself...

You know, the funny thing about that.

Is that if you were playing regular music and I was allowed to witness that; I'd feel far safer about the situation you're in.

Tho I know just like some other bits of your soul, being over there so long has rendered you energetically impotent.

A feeling I recall.

It's no fun.

Tho there's silver linings.

Like sustainable growth.

And spontaneous growth.

All of which will likely be in you doing more things that I asked you to do.

Wherein when you'll fall in love with me again and again.

Esp as you start to feel better about yourself.

Which is when the fogs will really start to lift.

And then understanding will come across your beautiful mind.

And then you'll come find me and the boys.

And we will all rejoice 🥰🕊️🕊️

Dear Cabbit....Day 4

Old karmic cycles, loops, contracts, and binds are releasing as I write this.

Been feeling it.

Been going with it.

And considering you reached back out

And our convo flow is much easier

And that you don't appear to be running or chasing anyone..

It feels like you're releasing too.

It feels like the big one for you, was your long time fear of us repeating what happened with your parents.

Spirit tells me you already see, that was never going to happen with us the way it happened with them, and that the only reason it's gotten this close, is cuz you needed to manifest a big wake up call.

Which you've done.

And now you're unraveling entanglements.

And dreaming of being able to pass the "peace of mind and heart" test, so you can feel like you feel it in you and bring it with you when you come.

Dear Cabbit...the cut off...

You know.

It's interesting how you and the two close friends I've released this past year, all had it in your minds that the best way to deal with ppl who hurt you, is to completely cut them out of your life and go cold turkey on communications and all other things.

Your sisters agree too.

It seems to be a common thot.

And with complete irony, when any of you are then the one completely cut out and cut off coldly; you all hate it.

You all seek to justify why it was acceptable when you say for me to do that to others; or with you, when you do it to me.

Then when the shoe is on the other foot, I'm a delusional asshole who abandoned you in your times of need after 'all' you did for me.

Strange fruit, eh?

Dear Cabbit... I've defended your honor...time after time...

I was just thinking about it..

I've completely disconnected from anyone who ever tried to use our connection to get me to do something for them, or who tried to suggest I shouldn't believe in you.

Several have said you're broken and either always will be, or that it's such a long shot that you'll choose to heal, even though you can, that it'll take too long and I'd be wasting my time to believe in you.

Actually, several of those same ppl, seemed to be jealous that my heart is so clearly with you always, and how I can manage to heal and uplevel and grow, even with what you've been doing and how you've been acting in the 3d.

Like they get jealous cuz they don't feel anyone has ever loved them like I love you, and can see that they don't feel self loving enough to love others the way I love you either.

A few, who walked with me on this journey, even got to see; you aren't the only one I see so much light in that I see them as worthy of my admiration, forgiveness, and attention.

I have given you far more in the past.

And even now, as I chose myself and distance from you - even that is giving you more then I've ever wanted to give to another human being.

Though that isn't too say there aren't others out there who will earn such loyalty from me.

I know I have room for it.

And that I can walk with that in good ways.

Anyways.

Thot it'd be fun to document for later thot andor convos.

Whether just for me, or as I'd hoped; for us.

Dear Cabbit... trust fall...

Today I ended the very close and deep friendship I had going since shortly after our missions started.

Feels like another good choice for me.

And also like a choice you're reflecting.

I think you were ready to release your karmic connections before I was this time.

We just both needed a little belly fire, so to speak..

Anyways..

I'm both excited and a lil anxious about the season ahead.

I know you've got work to do in getting fully untangled from where you've been.

And I've got to learn to loosen up and just have some fun and not worry about the outcomes.

Which I know you're learning too.

You just had some deeper healing work.

That's ok.

Just shows how amazing you already were, that you're journey has been deeper than many others...

Either way..

I go forward, only trusting my heart..

That whatever happens next..

Especially after my last challenge to you, to either release me fully or step back into the light and doing right..

Might be quiet for a while..

Might not..

Idk..

Tho I'm embracing the fun of many joyfully amazing pleasant surprises ahead; from you and all others.

Still..

I feel squishy..

I miss you..

I'm sure you know..

By now you ought too...lol

Anyways..

You're always in my prayers..

And I'm always believing in you.

I know you'll do the right things when you're ready too..

And that that's always sooner then I expect and better then I imagined ❤️