I've completely disconnected from anyone who ever tried to use our connection to get me to do something for them, or who tried to suggest I shouldn't believe in you.
Several have said you're broken and either always will be, or that it's such a long shot that you'll choose to heal, even though you can, that it'll take too long and I'd be wasting my time to believe in you.
Actually, several of those same ppl, seemed to be jealous that my heart is so clearly with you always, and how I can manage to heal and uplevel and grow, even with what you've been doing and how you've been acting in the 3d.
Like they get jealous cuz they don't feel anyone has ever loved them like I love you, and can see that they don't feel self loving enough to love others the way I love you either.
A few, who walked with me on this journey, even got to see; you aren't the only one I see so much light in that I see them as worthy of my admiration, forgiveness, and attention.
I have given you far more in the past.
And even now, as I chose myself and distance from you - even that is giving you more then I've ever wanted to give to another human being.
Though that isn't too say there aren't others out there who will earn such loyalty from me.
I know I have room for it.
And that I can walk with that in good ways.
Anyways.
Thot it'd be fun to document for later thot andor convos.
Whether just for me, or as I'd hoped; for us.
