Dear Cabbit; the tale of Cabbie and his Backpack..

GoodEvening my budding Gentlemen =)

I mostly just stopped in to tell you I love you.

Just so I can enjoy the look on your face when you read blog posts like this, lol.

I had actually spent several hours writing to you yesterday. Though my ND got the better of me, so now it's another draft that I'll show you some day, lol

Until then; Cabbie's been sending me visions of you writing about the backpack...

Going through and rectifying the story of us by way of going through your memories of backpacks and back up plans, why you've lied so much and been so scared to be authentic, and about how you found yourself excited for the first time ever; to pack your backpack to come back home to us.

I've no idea what timeline those visions are from, or which one will line up with me by the time you share these feels with me; I just know that's the baseline of how fun and meaningful and deep it'll be, which means when these connections line up in the 3d, they'll be even more amazing then the baseline; cuz that's the kind of manifestors we are - it's always better then imagined with us =)

So!

Until then.

I'll be giggling relentlessly over here, about how you both keep me more firmly grounded into your lives that I do, and loving knowing that everything you're both doing without any of my help, is manifesting a most bodacious and delicious union for you and me and all our kiddos <3 =D

As always,

Unfuckwithably yours,

Lady Bunny =)

Dear Cabbit....high caliber...

 I went to put on my playlist to do some writing too, since our youngest is quad riding and I dont wanna speak my thoughts out loud around him.

The first song that came on with the shuffle, was "nobody knows it but me".

I remember when that song first started coming up.

You confirmed you'd been hearing it too.

It was when we were sharing syncs.

Just like you started doing again with that wagon.

Now it's a song called "Mercy". A newer one I love, cuz it's about a guy asking a girl why she's dressing up and doing things that make him fall in love with her even more. He's asking her to "have mercy" by taking her shot with him if she loves him; and if she's not gonna take her shot, then just get it over with and break his heart. Make it fast.

Both songs together, tell me what you're feeling; and I didn't even turn on the playlist with the intention to know that at the moment.

Feels fitting.

You're so adorable.

You confuse yourself so often; triple thinking things.

Thankfully, I'm not confused anymore, and I know I'm not confusing. I'm very clear.

Ironically, you're very clear too; that's how I know how you feel and what's really going on.

You're sort of like some of the folx spirit has me working with; who tell themselves a story that they aren't "that healed" andor that they're "confused", when really they're very healed and not at all confused. They're just anxious.

Funny; now "Sweet Home Alabama" is on, and all day today and the past few days, I've been seeing syncs to do w/reese witherspoon, who played the lead role in our fav movie by the same title as the song. I just love that. Esp the connection w/lighting and Hart of Dixie.

That's how I see you, you know?

As a man who was; not is, trouble - and mostly only cuz he knows what he wants. He just puts too high a standards in front of himself, when he misunderstoods the standards of the lady his heart gave itself too. A man who feels he has to build himself up to a certain 3d level before he'll feel 'high caliber' enough to approach his lady and feel he can confidently hold his head up proudly without any deceptions and say "I'm ready".

I remember when I told you, before you joined the circus; "be more like wade. He grew so he could be a match to the woman he loves. He didn't give up. He didn't give in. And he didn't let his naughty past hold him back."

Wow. Just accidentally clicked on a new song called "You". It's a guy singing about "I got you for the rest of my days"...that's from you too...

It's funny how signs are all around, that speak our hearts to each other.

If I didn't know this, and hadn't worked on my self esteem - I might still not understand why you've stayed so distant for so long, or why you've had to write yourself lists of reasons not to give into "temptation" with me - which is so funny, as I haven't even fully turned on the charm yet! lol

Thinking bout doing that soon though.

We'll see; I'm enjoying seeing what you're doing with your space to create whatever you want while I'm not "on". Plus, it's really fun and affirming that I don't even have to really be "trying" and you already see everything I do as so tempting and such a "pursuit" of you, that you have to write lists and fill your life with dozens of demanding distractions just to keep yourself from running back to me immediately. 

Makes me feel so naturally powerful, lol.

Wonder what will happen if I just turn the charm up a couple of notches? lol

Love always,

Your One & Only =)

Dear Cabbit...the Old Codes no longer Apply...

This has been a repeating sync lately. 

Ever since BS (bible study), lol

Which is so much fun. 

I look forward to when you get to where you can feel how much fun it is to communicate and banter with the universe in all the ways you love to banter and play with me. 

It's so funny, knowing from the moment I agreed to go with mom, that there would be something fun in it for me, just like this.

Then to know just how much the ppl who go to the same BS, have no idea. 

Zero awareness of how much MORE there is to the very stuff they say they place all their faith in.

Reminds me of another phrase that's come up much recently, "forgive them. they know not what they do."

Dear Cabbit...looking away for a season..

It's interesting to be in this time and space.

Where I can feel us near our farthest apart moments that we've ever had since the first apartment.

Long way to go from never more then one night, then never more then one week; to having gone all this time so physically and emotionally far from each other.

And to also feel and know in every part of my being, that we are closer then ever and coming into harmony very quickly.

Which is something profound to see, feel, and know.

It's also something not many can truly appreciate and understand.

Which in some ways is sad, cuz there's not anyone I want to share the exp with.

So these are the moments when I not only date myself, I am also my own best friend.

My own cheerleader.

My own counselor.

My own judge.

Allthethings.

Cuz some things are too special to share..

Including some gnowings.

Plus, sometimes, even when you want to share and you have someone who has seen the same data and seen all the magick, they still don't really believe; mostly cuz of their own shadows, though either way, wanting to share with those who can't believe you yet, just isn't worth it in comparison to actually manifesting the exps you want.

I know this is something you'll understand at some point soon.

You've actually always been the one person to believe me far more often and far more completely then anyone else.

I realized that, after facing many fears about ppl not believing me.

Now I'm in a place where I'm comfortable with ppl believing me or not, thinking I'm weird or crazy or whatnot, and just letting them think that.

Both cuz I can believe myself now, and not require anyone else to tell me they see what I see or agree with my intuition or assessments, and cuz I know who will always believe me.

You.

Which made me laugh when I realized the truth in that, and how it answers so many questions about why you've been behaving as you have, and confirms everything I already predicted; with and without updates to said predictions.

Which hasn't been needed very often, cuz for me, you're very predictable, lol

That was something that surprised GoldenRod. 

That I predicted your behavior from the moment you left, and have been accurate.

Tho that's what makes me giggle about him and others.

They all tell me all the time, how accurate I am at reading ppl, intuiting the future, and lining things up with astrological energy.

And they've all seen me help myself, and help them, and help ppl they know.

Tho none of them believe when it comes to what I tell them about themselves, or about you.

Ironically, it's hardly about "us" stuff most of the time.

It's about all the rest of you.

Tho I realized the other day, that no one will ever know you as deeply as I do, cuz know one else has ever shown you that they wanted to and you've never wanted to be that open with anyone before or after.

And most ppl are bitter about relationships they've had, where they gave up too soon and regretted it, or gave up because they believe in "broken ppl".

So they can't appreciate you as a whole human being, cuz they'll never really know you.

And they couldn't appreciate the reality of data, even if they did know you that deeply, cuz they're too bitter about old wounds of theirs.

You know what's funny tho?

I don't get triggered by that anymore.

There's nothing to "prove".

Which is an interesting energy to sit in these days.

Absence of desperation.

Absence of need for approval.

Absence for any rush away from any situations or into any.

I'm comfortable with where things are right now.

You're right on schedule for where would be right for you; not anyone else,

Learning in just the ways you are.

Coming in and out of your shell as your ready to.

Doing your thang.

Lol

When Goldenrod said something the other day about his feeling that you'd stay stuck in the same cycles you have been, likely with different partners cuz of the nature of the toxicity in relationship approach; I wanted to look at him and be like "You have no faith, and you haven't been paying attention. Everything is just how it should be. Perfectly imperfect."

Tho as you and I both agreed a long time ago; there's clearly a certain kind of exp lacking there, that makes it near impossible to understand.

Which is funny, cuz again, I know you'll understand what I mean; at whatever point you get to reading this silly blog, lol

I know you understand the magick.

I know you understand the emotions.

I know you understand the karma (mostly).

And I know you have a much greater understanding of cycles, ppl, and realities of the world, in very similar ways to how I do.

And more.

Ironically, it's knowing that you actually do understand; that you were already enlightened when we moved into the apartment, and that that sort of understanding never goes away.

It stays.

Even when we go through hellish dark knights of the soul.

It stays.

That knowing.

That's what tells me to just trust.

More in Spirits plan and Divine Timing then anything else.

Though also in myself

And in you.

I know you're up to something..

And I know that even if I'm wrong about that, you've manifested all of the perfect ingredients in your life, to cause you to completely turn over the tables in your life, and stand in the energy of freedom very very soon.

Anyways.

I pray you're driving safely out on those roads.

And listening to your Intuition every mile.

Love you...always..

LadyBunny

Dear Cabbit....tears that sting..

Today I'm thinking of many things..

One of them..

Was a beautiful vision..

Of you coming to me..

Tearfully asking if you can take me on a Real date...and saying you're sorry you took all the opps to do so before, for granted..

And when we get to wherever you choose..

There's a juke box..

And you put on EC's "You look wonderful tonight"..

And you ask me to dance..

And as we dance..

You sing the song...

For me..

It feels like one of those dreams..

Where everything felt so real..

That when you wake up..

You don't want to leave it..

You want to go back to it..

Cuz it's so perfect..

😔

Dear Cabbit...karaoke with boys..

I find myself in an interesting moment.

Me and our boys are out for KO at the bar you found for us before you left..

One of my brothers showed up, as did some guys who've been flirting with me when I come here on my own.

And they are all having a GREAT time with the boys.

They all have kids of their own

Who don't get to come out with them.

Same reason you can't come out..

"Drama" n such..

It's strange to be seeing our boys have so much fun with other men..

To be getting the attention and appreciate they really want from you..

Will always want from you..

Tho what do they do..

What do I do...for them..

When you aren't here?

When you haven't been here..

When you let drama be your priority..

And pridefulness by your guide..

I'm praying for you now..

As I navigate new waters..

Having faith you're doing the same..

Cuz I know the tasks set before you..

Are not ones you've chosen before..

Dear Cabbit... you've become a pirate...

I keep hearing that line from Hook..

Where granny Wendy looks at grown up Peter after his son describes his adult life..

And she looks at him with genuine shock..

And said, "Peter... You've become a pirate.."

And then the music from when tink gets him to Neverland, and drops him off with the pirates to try to rescue his kids..

That almost tribal music, that tells you to watch where you go and what you say..

Cuz ancient magicks are afoot..

As are ruthless pirates..

Then there's the scene where the mom, before the kids were taken, throws Peters cell phone out the window and tells him "you're missing it", and describes how he's missing his kids lives..

And he STILL takes her and them for granted..

Until Hook nabs his kids..

And challenges him to the greatest challenge ever;

Which wasn't actually rescuing his kids.

It was Finding Himself.

Reconnecting with his inner child.

Looking at and finally releasing his childhood wounds.

Facing his childhood fears and his adult fears.

And being willing to do anything to save his kids; including trusting a crazy fairy and a bunch of kids, lol

There's so much about this journey

When we have to do that.

Take leaps of faith without having all the data or knowing how long it'll take or what ppl will think;

And just trust that when we take actions that align with our hearts, that we know will make us feel good about who we are inside, and what we feel we stand for.

I know that's much of what your guides are teaching you now.

I can tell by how the "you've become a pirate" line keeps coming up, though with your name in there, instead of Pan's.

I feel the energy of "miraculous change".

Increasingly over the past few days.

And can hear the "got to learn how to fight, remember how to fly, and crow."

Feels like the energy of you learning to find happy grateful thots that help you stand up for yourself and get you free.

And learn to fly.

Without alcohol or anything else.

Feels like you might be getting back into your music again too..

Picking up your guitars..

And reconnecting with yourself...

You know, the funny thing about that.

Is that if you were playing regular music and I was allowed to witness that; I'd feel far safer about the situation you're in.

Tho I know just like some other bits of your soul, being over there so long has rendered you energetically impotent.

A feeling I recall.

It's no fun.

Tho there's silver linings.

Like sustainable growth.

And spontaneous growth.

All of which will likely be in you doing more things that I asked you to do.

Wherein when you'll fall in love with me again and again.

Esp as you start to feel better about yourself.

Which is when the fogs will really start to lift.

And then understanding will come across your beautiful mind.

And then you'll come find me and the boys.

And we will all rejoice 🥰🕊️🕊️