My dearest Cabbit...
I hate so very much to feel you feeling sad...
Especially when I don't know what's "appropriate" to do...
In my heart, I want to come over there and hold you...
Though in my soul, I know whatever this is, is stuff you need to make it through...
Whether it's another break up with your Queen of Swords...
Or another catastrophy financially...
Or health wise...
Or something caused by the circus in your house...
I fear what it is this time...
Especially as...if you look in many posts below...
I've been getting messages from Spirit for some time, that your situation will become worse and worse...more and more heartbreaking as time goes on...if you prolonge the inevitable outcome...if you procrastinate learning some of the biggest karma you've been avoiding healing and releasing for such a very long time...
Things like saying sorry...
Speaking your truths...to everyone...
And ending things with your Queen of Swords circus...
Not to come back to me...(yet)...
but so you can come home to you...
To be single...
By choice...
Which I know was your biggest fear for a very long time...
I'm fairly certain it's not your biggest fear anymore...
Though you're still delaying it...
And it's really the thing you need...
For true healing...
Just to be you...
Not under anyones thumb...
To learn who you are...
To learn to love who you are...
To learn to allow yourself to be many things...
I fear whats going on now...
And what's going to happen coming up...
If you prolonge things much longer...
Not just what might happen with us...
What will happen to you..
As you asked the universe to heal you...
And it's not only giving you every opportunity to...
It's also helping you manifest the perfect storm to get you there...
Cuz everytime you think about what you don't want..
You manifest two things...
The first is more of what you don't want...
And the second is the manifestation of the unspoken things you do want...
One of which I know is true, genuine, unconditional love...
Which is at odds with what you're manifesting in all you're thinking about not wanting...
And the two things are pulling apart your world like two magnets faced the wrong way...
Quickly rushing away to other ends of the surface...taking with them everything you have recently built...everything you were so sure was what you wanted...
You're manifesting this...my love...
And only you can change what you manifest...
It's time...
My dear Cabbit...
To choose yourself...
To choose REAL love...
To choose to let everything you built up in your fit and your ego driven beliefs that money and stuff would make you happy...
To just let it all fall down...
By choice, rather than by force...
Which is definitely what will happen if you keep leaving it up the universe...
I know...cuz it is happening...
and because you confirm it for me...
I wish I could send you this post...
Let you know what I know...
Though I know that if I do that, I run the very real risk of forestalling your own metamorphasis...
Plus...I'm the last one who can talk about needing to get hit with the "big stick" spiritually speaking...that kind of became my nickname at the dance for a bit..."She who dances BIG"...
Regardless of how long you let this go on...
I'll be praying and sending you my love every day...
Along with all the creative ways I can find to send it to you in the 3d without upsetting things...
I know everything is unfolding beautifully in the bigger scheme of things...
And that everything is always working out...
Especially for you and me...
It's just...painful...
To know it all works out...
And to know that until that happens...
Or until you ask me for what I know...
That you have to at least feel like you're in this alone...
For these moments...
You're not...
And never have been...
But I've been through that...
I know why it's important to learn...
And either way...I'm here...
Whether or not you choose to turn to me...
Forever, Always, and Completely yours....
Empress Bunnie...
