I woke up this morning...30 minutes before the moon was at 100% full...and saw it was right over the bedroom window on my side...smiling down at me...
I knew you're heart was wrapped in that moonsmile...and that somehow you were signalling to me, that exactly what I intuited and have had confirmed by my fav readers...is happening...you're waking up fully...and freeing yourself...I just know it...
That's what feels like why you're being quiet today...cuz you're taking on your King of Swords side, and cutting out the karmic circus...which is only confirmed for me by your "omg people" text...which I do know has much to do w/work...but more than that, I know that when you're pissed at work, it's cuz you're pissed about whats going on at your house...and w/whoever you're with at the time...along w/whatever things your karmic ex's are doing to rile you up alos...
Not to mention...you were so "on top of it" when I told you about the collections letter you got here, for a loan that we all know she signed you up for, along w/all the other ones, the insurance scams, and the money she's scammed you out of in tons of ways all this time...I have a feeling that you're quickness to address that, is likely cuz you're looking for evidence and things to have as "ammo" for freeing yourself...
That...and I got a jury duty summons...which I know is a reflection of you going to court for something too...as we reflect each other...and since it would be highly improbable for us both to get summons for duty at the same time (although that would be funny), I have a feeling it's spirits way of confirming for me, that you're going to court to get her off the lease...or you're getting the landlords help...or you're getting yourself off the lease to leave her w/her own mess and the house...cuz it ain't worth fighting w/someone who refuses to acknowledge their own behavior and gets violent about being asked to, just to keep a rental house...
Though I do hope you do get brave and get her off the lease and out of the house...so you can keep that house...it's a perfect house for you to be single in...enough room for the kids when you'd have them...room for your studio...a nice backyard and front yard...affordable rent...a garage...it's still a bit small and too close to neighbors for my liking, though I do love that in picking that place, you basically ensured that every neighbor, nosy or not, would be all up yalls business, esp w/all the regular yelling and arguments and teenager parties....
Still though...I thought you're original plan was a good one...live there for a year...save up, fix your credit, buy your first house and build it up for 5 years, then sell or rent it out and buy the big house that you really want, on the land you want...which I laugh about still being the castle and land that WE have been manifesting...somehow I know you know that I know, that you plan to be back together by then...hell, I'm positive you planned to be together by now already...though you weren't learning you're lessons, nor standing up for yourself, and you had some karma to pay for how you've acted over the years...and that created a ton of setbacks, so you can get what you asked and wished for - healing and learning how to be genuine.
And really, I mean, one year set back isn't that much in the end. It wouldn't be bad or impractical to just spend another year there, and would actually build up your credit, so long as you paid your rent on time and didn't get anymore "roommates"...lol
Ha. I just had a memory of all the times I've told you that roommating w/ppl you know or are "friends" w/is always a bad idea...and that if nothing else, you're always better off w/a stranger, cuz if they fuck up, you don't have nearly as big of a problem telling them to get out, as you do w/someone you have emotional attachments too or history with...I'd imagine that's another lesson you're learning now, wherein you're hearing me in your head saying "told ya so"....lol
Anyways...thinking of you...sending you my prayers...you got this my love...you've got this...you're almost free...and you're gonna really love it once you are...
And then you're gonna come to me and tell me that I was right all along...and thank me for holding space and being the warmth in your life, that kept you moving forward...and inspired you to free yourself rather than give up all together...
Until then...I'm still loving you...
