I decided to get started on what I said I was going to do..
Start deleting...
I'm still not strong enough to delete pics of you...
Though I'm strong enough to release the memes and comics and various things I've been saving to send to you..
Or too remind me of you...
Or that held some meaning to me..
Synchronisties..
Encouragements..
Reassurances..
There were almost 1500 in all...
And that's just since last August..
And it's taking my phone a lot of energy to delete all those at once..
I can only imagine what it'll take to get the rest..
It feels like my phone is having just as hard a time releasing the energy of my love for you..
As I am..
Though it feels like time..
Time to let this stuff go..
I'm not sure if it's because I'm sensing it's really over...and this'll help me really let you go..
Or if I'm sensing that we're nearing rebirth, and this is simply part of releasing the "old us"...so a newer better us can come in...
Either way..
It hurts..
Cuz all I can feel right now..
Is like you don't see me..
That you never have..
And you probably never will...
