Though one of the reasons I actually do have great faith in you in many many ways, is cuz I know one of the greatest cosmic laws: that which you resist persists.
And because you've been so resistant to doing right by the boys, I know that energy persists in the rest of your life.
And that will continue until you learn the karmic lesson.
Which really, I think has been your biggest karmic lesson, and why you manifested the rQoS.
Cuz you complained about how "hard" it was to be a good dad for so long.
Then fought against healthy boundaries that were for THEM.
Not for you.
Not for the rQoS.
Not for me.
For the boys.
The same kinds of boundaries you deserved when you were young.
The same kinds of boundaries you deserved now...
And have put yourself in the position to have to give to yourself.
The more you resist that
The more that karmic lesson persists.
I also know
Because of your resistance to me
And cuz of your words to our oldest
That I persist in your heart and head
And not in all the bad ways you act like.
Actually, I can tell by your own words and actions that in persist in you in far more good ways.
That you're mostly just mad at yourself
And what you've let your life become
And that I'm not being outwardly "sweet" to you anymore.
Which you probably feel you need more then ever right now.
You're not wrong about that either.
It's just that you need to give it to yourself first.
And the more you resist that
The more that will persist
Until you do it.
All, ironically
Because you have manifested wanting to learn those lessons.
