My dearest crabbity Cabbit...
I'm thinking in this moment, about something that keeps being said in the things I listen to while just doing my thing - it's what we used to say and laugh about from one of our favorite movies - "They look like big strong hands..."
Which was from the scene in Neverending Story, where the big rock daddy, couldn't figure out how to stop "the nothing" from taking over, and feel into an existential depression, thinking that his big strong hands were maybe not so great anymore...that maybe being able to crush things...didn't hold the meaning he thought it once did...
And he was right. That was definitely a source of joy for him - his "work".
Though it wasn't everything.
Life has so much more to it.
Which feels like what you're being shown by Spirit - that YES - you do have big strong hands.
You are a MAN. You are a provider. You are a Masculine. You are a hard worker.
You are already all of the things you've been trying so hard to prove to yourself that you are.
And once you see that - and accept it - you'll feel free.
You'll start to feel truly worthy.
You'll start seeing how healing it feels to be kind and accountable and REAL.
To let yourself just feel how you feel - without fearing "the nothing" will take over if you do.
Without fearing "the nothing" at all - cuz it's not a thing to be feared in the first place.
It's just a Phoenix Moment - a time for rebirth.
A time to see ourselves - when spirit holds up a mirror we can't look away from until we learn to love looking at our own reflection; which only happens when we stand in our truth, own what's ours to own, put down what's not ours to carry, and allow (not pursue) our healing path to unfold - to guide us further into our authenticity, our joy, our balance, and our inner being - at which point, when it no longer feels like a "need", we can finally recieve all the love, appreciation, respect, accollades, abundance, protection, reputation, security, freedom, clarity, and everything else we've ever wanted.
So Yes - they are "big strong hands".
They are loverly hands too - if I say so myself.
They're also gentle, capable, and meant for so much healing.
I can't wait until the day you wake up to this - and even better, will be the day you finally come back to this blog; likely either just before our reunion, or not long after - when you'll be so free of the burdens of the past you've been carrying around in your emotional 'mad bag' - that we can giggle about this all.
Until then...
Always, forever, and completely yours,
~Empress
