The fact that if I really had no faith in you; I never would've told you any of what I did recently.
Least of all that I have no faith in you.
Which I said with full realization that I was feeling a temporary absence of faith that was backed up by knowing that if I showed you I have those big feelings sometimes, that it would somehow show you how much faith I actually do have in you; after you learn to have faith in you.
Also, just fyi; *I* did NOT "give" you a "complex".
You already had those complexes.
You were just able to keep them compartmentalized better until I held them up in front of you with those words.
Anyways, the funny vision, was of you doing your 6 thing, and going around collecting opinions from everyone, in a way that doesn't give away who you're talking about or why...
So you can see what others might do with the choices you have before you, and Spirit is going to help you see "what you want".
Which, incase you haven't noticed, is the place in the spiralcycle that we have returned to.
Proper Apologies
And "What do you really WANT?"
In fact, it feels like I can feel you writing another text to me, where you tell me you've decided what you really want.
You might even recycle what you used last time, without knowing it; saying you really want a "warm friendship", lol
I'm giggling.
If you do that, I might just tell you no, just because we both know that you'll just fall in love with me again.
Esp with how many things you've revealed that you had to do just to keep yourself away from me and convince yourself that I'm the bad guy, lolol.
You're so adorable.
Anyways, the other funny vision, is of what's ahead, esp if you continue to be a slow poke about things; ever worried about using the "right" words and taking the "right" actions, still learning to trust yourself, trust Spirit, and trust me and the boys.
Silly Cabbit.
If you think last year when you left was a hard "show" to keep away from, then you just wait.
Cuz I'm in such a place of total faith about how everything works out, and am listening to my intuition and Spirit, that while you free yourself and figure out the "right" words and actions, imma be over here living the delicious life I know Big Pimpin really wants and yearns for.
While you lurk.
Like the adorable creepy lurker guy you have always been.
Watching me REALLY have fun.
Wondering just how much *fun* I'm *really* having, and with who..
And if any of them are able to pass all tests..
And finding that adorable hypocritical possesiveness in you burning you up.
Wanting me all to yourself
Wanting to be out having fun with me
Wanting to make sure every guy within any radius of me, knows that I'm YOURS...
Though knowing you have ZERO control, and can't do anything about what I do or what anyone else thinks, until you want it ALL and are ready to REALLY have "balls".
Fun thoughts.
I'm really laughing out loud at what kinds of kinky things your mind is making you think I'd be getting up to with this new found freedom and faith.
Likely a ton of things I'd either never think about or wouldn't be interested in unless you were in my arms to exp it with.
Such juicy thoughts.
I look forward to the day when you tell me about how you drove yourself nuts with kinky and jealous thoughts about all I might get up to with my healthy freedoms and nature for adventure...
That will be so adorable.
I love you.
I'll hug you so much when that happens, lol.
Yours always,
Madame Rose
