Our whole story has been full of you taking bad advice from toxic ppl who enjoy seeing drama and stagnation in your life, though it feels now more then ever, like you're giving up your power and taking bad advice in terms of co-parenting and interacting with me.
Funny enough, that actually doesn't feel like a bad thing rn.
It feels like a good thing.
Cuz it feels like the 180 of when I told you that I took some bad advice, when I could've approached things differently.
Esp with whatever this weekend trip is supposed to be about for you.
It feels like the return of you attempting to put the energy into that shituationship, that you should've put into us, and that it's going to really show you who you've been with and how you've hurt yourself and your loved ones giving into those who don't want to see you succeed and heal and enjoy being who you are.
It'll be interesting to see how that plays out.
Many readers who've been very accurate, plus my own cards and Intuition, are saying it's very likely that just before or after the full moon this weekend, you're likely to reach out to me with a volcano of emotions and repeat the "I wish I would've listened" moment that happened about this time last year.
Which feels good and bad.
As much as I do sometimes have feelings like I expressed in that regret note, I really hate seeing you in pain, and I know in order for you to really learn the lessons you need to learn and have refused to do the easier ways, mean you need to go through bigger more painful experiences.
And I've definitely been feeling a return on the energy I was in when you left and then I got more information on who you got tangled up with, where I'm afraid for you.
Thankfully, I'm much calmer and see that it's even more important to trust Spirit and let things play out, then I was then.
Rather then trying to save you, my lesson is to have faith in you saving yourself.
I'm spirit getting you out of that situation in ways that will ensure you don't get into them in the first place anymore.
Which is what I've been reassured is what's happening and why.
So that very soon, you'll be putting appropriate healthy effort into co-parenting and even friendship.
So you won't ever take me for granted like you have.
Or our boys or your sister.
Basically, so you'll learn to cherish the healthy connections you have, and release the unhealthy ones you've been too scared to release and remain free of.
Which is what I focus on.
Not the feeling of knowing you're fighting all the time and wrapped in drama.
Not the disappointment of seeing you'd rather ignore my invitation to participate in a drama free Easter with your family, then to simply say "no thankyou" or "yes please".
Not the stress of knowing that if you're working so much, you're stressed out and life isn't going well.
Instead, I focus on knowing that the more you work, the more time you spend away from the toxic energy at the house and away from karmics trying to keep you trapped and toxic yourself.
The more time and space you have to think about things.
And the more able you are to have the resources to get yourself free; either for your own apt, or to be able to afford that house on your own when you're living alone.
Knowing that as the hardest lessons you've yet been through, come in and break you down, they will help you grow and become the man you really want to be, that I've known you really have been this whole time.
Funny enough, that's part of why I sent that regret note.
I knew you wouldn't get it in that moment.
Though it's like the Andy Grammar song "wish you pain".
It may sound crazy, but I know what you don't; that through pain, growth occurs.
Just like you've shown it already to be doing, just from those words I bravely shared with you that told the truth about how I felt in those moments and what I was seeing.
I know you'll understand someday soon.
That'll be a really good day.
